Monday, October 12, 2009

SO many things have happened over the past six months. I have lost my grandfather, uncle, and aunt, and now it seems I may have lost my Mitchell. Today I came home from work and browsed through some of my pictures from all the happenings since April. I realize now it is alot. Weddings, funerals, parties, break-ups, a big move, losing a job, finding a job, changing churches... just thinking about it overwhelms me. I wonder if all of it has really sunk in. It just goes to show you that life keeps on going whether you are ready for it or not. I am just glad my DADDY is always here to go through it all with me. I have no idea what to expect next, but I do have a peace that He will take care of me. Lately all I have wanted to do is sit and think about things. Nothing seems to be the same as it was six months ago.

Today is a melancholy day. Rainy with thoughts of him on my mind, wondering where I should go from here. I have no complaints. My life is full. I just wonder what my next move should be. I wonder where God is taking me. I wonder if he will ever call or if he is gone forever. Right now relationships seem fleeting and so do some of the people in my life. Here for a year, but gone in a second. I just need some time to think. I just need some time to soak it all in. I just need some Jesus.

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