Monday, March 22, 2010

Day 2

Today is a great day! I get to meet my new cousin Caleb Joshua! Here is the first pic, and I will post more when I get back!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Day 1

Today I wanted to explain myself a bit... I want this blog to be more of an experiment than me ranting on about how I feel about myself. I would like all of you to tell me what you think is beautiful, and what you struggle with. Come on, be brave! Anyway, today I experienced some true beauty, and I wanted to share it with you:

After my boss left for work, Avery and I began the day together. I got her dressed and sat her on the bed while I folded her laundry. She played and cooed and laughed and I folded. Simple everyday stuff, right? Maybe, but to me it made my day. She is so amazing and I enjoy even the most simplest things with her. She makes me feel beautiful. :)

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Just the Beginning...

Insecurity. It is a word that I know that most women are familiar with. It is a word that not only fits our descriptions of ourselves, but for some of us it haunts our lives. It manifests itself in numerous forms: weight, physical features, power, security, etc. If I am to be honest, then I have to admit that I have sized up a few women in my day based on looks, personality, morals and oh so many other ways. However, after a few life changes I am beginning to realize my own insecurities. The main questions I find asking myself, God, and the people in my life is "Do you think I am beautiful?" and "Am I worthy?". As of now I am unsure exactly why these questions surface up in my heart like a bouy does with you throw it in an ocean. These are questions I try to stuff way down deep in the darkest part of the ocean of my heart. But, alas, bouys do not sink and no matter how hard you throw them down, they always manage to come back up again.

As a result, I have decided to go on my own journey to discover true beauty and reasons for insecurity not only in myself, but in the lives of other women I know. Most of the time, for me, my greatest discoveries are through typed or handwritten letters to God. So, that is the format I plan on using. Please feel free to comment and give your own ideas on the subject. Thanks and love you all.