Tamar

Accompanied by virgin companions, dressed a sack cloth, covered in ashes, Tamar approached Him. He was seated on a throne high and exalted, and the train of His robe filled the temple. Above Him were seraphs each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is filled with his glory. As the throne grows closer and closer in the dark eyes of Tamar, she thinks about how unworthy she is; she thinks that she shouldn't be here. As she finally approached the steps of this heavenly realm she fell to her feet in reverence, but mostly in grief. Her life had been taken from her, and she had grown to believe her worthlessness. But the Father, he saw her, stroked her hair with his gentle hand and found her face under her shiny dark hair.Tamar shook with fear, and could not bring herself to look at him. But the Lord, with his grace, held Tamar's face in both his hands and softly kissed her forehead and both her cheeks. As He did this a tear fell from her empty eyes. Without so much as a whisper the Lord cleaned the ashes from her body with his hair, removed her sack cloth, and clothed her with a beautiful gown woven with gold. He then placed a deep purple robe around her shoulders covered in jewels. He took her by the hand, led her down the stairs, and held her as they danced together. The heavenly hosts singing behind them. As Tamar wept and became weaker and weaker, the Lord picked her up and held her close as they continued to dance. He then leaned into her and whispered, "Tamar, beloved, you are no longer a slave to your ashes and your sack cloth. You are mine. You are my princess." At that point Tamar's body fell limp in His arms and she stayed there all night as He sang over her and carried her as they danced.

Oh! One more thing.... miles davis is excellent to accompany your summer evenings.

sum sum summertime

Is it just me or is it hard to stay motivated during the summer? During the school year I am motivated by lack of time, but now all I have is time. I know you are thinking, "well at least you don't have to work in the summer!" I know, I know, I am one of the lucky ones, but it is very difficult to go from having not enough time in the day to having all day! I have things I could be working on, but motivation is anywhere but present. I did however find the time to find the hottest snake skin heels today and a really cute black bathing suit. Neither of these were on my to-do list, but it was much more fun buying heels to go with my new pencil skirt than staying here and working on things. So all in all I guess I did accomplish a few things. :) I guess tonight I will get lost in my Bible studies and prepare for my class I am teaching tomorrow evening. If you find yourself bored and reading this... call me... I will probably love the distraction. ;)

its been a while....

Well I realize it has been a while since my last post, so I just thought I would give you an update on my life for those of you who read my blog.... All things are great I am going to India in the fall and I am in the process of raising support for this mission. I need your help financially, but I also need your prayer support. I will be going with a group to minister to the slaves of the tea fields in India. We will be going door to door in the slums telling people about the miracle of life, JESUS CHRIST! I appreciate any support you can give me! God is doing great works and I am being continually blessed everyday. It is amazing because I am a very inconsistent person and I often times let my emotions get in the way of things. For example, if I do not feel like doing something at that moment, but I know I have to I have noticed I kindof get an attitude. Like tonight for example, I wanted to stay home and rest rather than go to church. However, God knew I needed the fellowship. When I got there I was blessed by hugs, words of encouragement, prayer, and devotion. I left feeling restored and renewed. God is good, and I am so glad he knows me better than I know myself. Somebody needs to keep me in line, and I don't do a very good job at that, but he does! Thanks to those of you who read my posts, it means alot to know you care about my thoughts. I write not only for myself, but to encourage you. I hope you are blessed by my page as much as I am blessed by you reading it! Thanks again, Katie

tonight

Tonight I am in one of those contemplative moods where no matter what I do or think about I just feel off... like something is missing. Some nights I get like this without a clue as to what I can attribute it to. Tonight, well, tonight is not one of those nights. I know exactly the reason for my deep thoughts and loneliness. It is actually a few things. The first is living alone. I guess it just comes with the territory. The second I guess I can blame on nostalgia... and because of these two conspirators I find myself listening to sad songs and blogging. I guess I am making the assumption that this particular blog will not be read, but instead will find its way out into the great abyss of the world of bloggerdom. Since my mind is constantly on the move these days, I find it difficult to keep up. So I come here to write and release without any expectation of revelation or response. You see, in a journal each page is written on, the cover closes, and it is put away in a drawer or on a shelf. In the blogging world, I can write on a page, click publish, and send my thoughts elsewhere. For a lack of a better phrase, I would venture to say that clicking that button is almost like a religious experience. It allows me to let it all go. So tonight, that is what I will do. I will click the publish button and then, maybe then, a feeling of sweet release will follow.